February 2011
17644) I don't want to be skinny because that’s...
January 2011
I’ve lost 3.3 lbs! So my BMI is now 36.57 and I weigh 233… Definitely not where I want to be but I’ve stopped gaining and that’s important.
Like I said… Times 10. My boyfriend and I broke up. 6 years, gone.
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. Pertaining to my life.. For every good thing that happens there is a 10x greater negative reaction.
My computer is broken. Exactly what I want, more things I can’t pay for.
I wish I had non-stop energy like my cat.. she’s literally running circles around my apartment right now at mock speed. I think this is number 50 and she’s still going.
Had Subway..
But at least I walked there. However, I slipped a little because of my intense craving tonight. Got a 6 in. spicy Italian.. not the worst, not the best, but then I also got a medium cherry soda, pizza Doritos, AND two cookies. So good, so fucking good, but I couldn’t get the calories out of my head :/
I am so fucking hungry.. I’m going crazy right now, all I want is something good to make me feel better. Not apples, not celery, not any fucking grapes.. real, delicious, filling food. Ughhhhhhh this night is never ending!
You don’t realize how much of your time someone occupies until their gone.. :/
Adding wine to my growing number of calories. Ugh
Just kidding, I only had 708 calories today, whoops, but what I said still stands, I feel the same way about the number 1,071.
Part of me hates this.. the fact that I see 1,071 calories and think that’s way too much. Who am I kidding? A normal diet is 1,200-1,600 or something, and I think 1,071 is sickening. Right now, I’m starving. I can feel my stomach screaming at me in anger, but I can’t be fat anymore. I can’t.
Boredum is what kills me. All it does is let me think about my hunger, but fuck, I’ve been SO BAD these last couple days. Every time I think I’m going to have a good day, my friends want to hang out and my brain tricks me into thinking that’s a free pass to eat whatever I want. I wish I lived in a better area where I could walk around at night and just burn calories and relax.
aiskay-deactivated20111129-deac asked: agreeeeed with the boobs thing...im trying to lose my boobs, heard any good tips?
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I drove past Burger King to a house with no food. *Pat on my fuckin’ back*
Reblog; If you want/have a small chest
ari-on-a-diet:
skinnylilpeach:
missdoublezero:
I wear a 32A and it’s whatever to me… I just wanna see if there’s anyone who actually wants to have a smaller chest. I’d prefer to be a 32C!
I want a smaller chest,
but that’s because I wear a 44E ;_;
I want small boobs. I’m a 34DD/DDD right now and its impossible to find my size in non-granny bras.
I would give anything for smaller...
Help!
So my friends want to go to sushi tonight.. I'm nervous.. I LOVE sushi and I know it carries a lot of calories. Does anyone know what sushi rolls are the best to eat when dieting??
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What I’m really looking forward to, is to be able to wear everything in my closet. All the clothes I just couldn’t get rid of, all the clothes I didn’t return, all the breathtaking vintage I liberated from work. I cannot wait.
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I’m beginning to want to isolate myself so I can focus on losing weight. I wish I could stop time for a year, lose the weight in perfect isolation and determination with no distraction, stress, or temptation, and then just pick right up again. I have SO MUCH to stress about, mostly money, and all I want to do is focus on shedding rolls. I wish life would just throw me a fuckin’ bone...
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